I am going to tell you something about me. It’s something that most would say is a GOOD trait, but it has a dark side.
I am LOYAL. As a partner, friend, or teammate. To places & people. To product brands that I love. To a lifestyle that I choose. It could be unimportant things or significant things. I want people to know that I can be trusted. So how can that ever be a bad thing?
Quick Disclaimer: As I write this, I’m talking about stress A LOT and it seems like I live my life under a blanket of stress. I really don’t, but only by the grace of God! Truly. My goal is always to be an open book so hopefully you can learn through my mess.
Today, I’m going to relate it all to food because, well, that is what I’m learning through right now? Ha. I’ve been loyal to KETO for over a year & a half. It was an experiment. I was almost to my goal weight when I started so I wasn’t necessarily looking to lose weight, but really wanted to see how my gym performance would change. I thrived on KETO for a long while, but about 6 months ago, things were changing. I was gaining back some weight & fat and my eating/exercise habits were the same. I kept making adjustments, reevaluating, adding in intermittent fasting, etc and just couldn’t get a handle on it. I was certain it was stress & hormones which caused me to stress about stress & hormones. “I know, I know- Darla! Get it together!” I kept feeling like I should switch back to more traditional macros for someone who works out like I do, but… what would everyone think?! I’ve helped so many people start Keto and I believe in it. I still do! I carried that fear for months and it added fuel to the fire of turmoil from so many other things that I was stressing out over. Not to mention, everywhere I look, people are killing it with the KETO lifestyle, crushing it in the gym, and getting ripped bodies. All I could think is, “What’s wrong with me? I’m doing the things. I’m checking off the list.”
Well- I finally decided “if it’s not working anymore, I have to change. NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE THINKS.” (Let me add this in too: People may not really care what I do, BUT our minds can create scenarios that we feel are REAL, so we let these thoughts rule our emotions & wreak havoc on our physical bodies. I say that to let you know, my mind is a mean girl sometimes. ) A few weeks ago I not only added healthy carbs back into my diet, but I started Renaissance Periodization (If you aren’t familiar with that way of eating, that needs to be another post). In doing this, it is WAY easier to meal prep with the little containers instead of just keeping everything in bulk in the fridge (my usual process). If you know me, I’ve said SO MANY TIMES that the thought of preparing those containers of food stresses me to pieces. However, I’ve been doing it for 2 weeks now and you know what, NO stress. Quite the opposite…I felt a freedom and peace as soon as I prepped those containers for the first time. Please, feel free to laugh, but let me bring it home with this: I never tried meal prepping this way because I THOUGHT I would hate it or I THOUGHT it wasn’t really my “personality” to do things that way or I THOUGHT it would stress me out, BUT…
THAT very thing that I THOUGHT was an obstacle was actually a bridge!
Who would’ve thought that there was FREEDOM over there…packaged into small food containers? LOL. Also- I have always logged everything that I eat into a food diary and it had gotten to be something that felt more like an anchor instead of a tool for the last several months. Ever since doing my meal prep this way, I don’t have to log my food anymore. I do all of the work up front and then eat what I’ve prepared.
I love when I see Jesus in such practical things. This is one of those things. Sometimes, we choose to stay in dormant or unhealthy seasons or lifestyles simply because we are comfortable with staying where things are familiar instead of stepping into the unknown… Fear is paralyzing and WILL take over if you it ANY space. I just want you to know- push forward and make the changes that you need to make. There is freedom over there!